Another shitty day

You ever just wake up and be so excited about the day. Excited to do things you been thinking of then your day gets shit on. Woke up excited about life planning my day to get screamed at about throwing away something on the ground by other trash. So far got screamed at that I’m stupid and worthless. That I’m gross and he doesn’t want me. I waited for him to leave before I cried. I don’t feel like doing anything. I love watching the tv show saving grace. Love that she’s so free. Free to act how she wants free to do what she wants. I miss that feeling of freedom. All I ever feel is trapped and alone. I randomly get ridiculously anxious and nervous and I just look up cars or motor homes and think about just taking off. Never coming back traveling like I always wanted to. As stupid as it sounds I always thought the wild thornberrys had it made traveling with your family to amazing places seeing amazing animals. I would do that in a heartbeat. I once found an adorable little house in the middle of nowhere it was adorable completely hidden in the woods so small. For months I dreamt of living there some reason with sheep and goats making goat cheese. Total isolated in the woods. I guess I just like something to dream about.