drifting

I’m deep in the paranoia again. I got close to a someone and I feel like there drifting away from me. I don’t know if it’s me imagining things or if he actually is. I really like him. Ok I’m going to say it I’m dumb. We haven’t actually spent any time together like none. We have yet to meet. We have face called each other. But feel like it’s less and less. I don’t know if I did something wrong or if I’m imagining it. I really like him he’s sweet and creative. But I feel like I’m constantly asking him to spend time. Feel like I’m always the one who wants to spend time. I want someone who can’t wait to spend time with me. Someone who’s asking me when they can come see me because they miss me after two hours of being gone. Someone who wants to spend time with me when I do nothing. I feel like he could be that but I don’t know. I don’t trust myself and how I feel. I don’t trust the fact that I would know if he’s right. Look at my past I thought my ex was amazing he wasn’t perfect but I excepted him. Then it turned to a dumpster fire of shit. Just seems like I finally open up to people and they see and are not interested anymore. I’m getting tired and depressed so might sleep.