ok I legit watch the same movies again and again. Right now been watching how Harry met Sally. I got to call bullshit on one thing. It is utter bullshit that they slept together. There is no such thing as accidentally having sex. I’ve had alot of sex I shouldn’t of have but it wasn’t an accident. Like fuck his dick didn’t fall into my mouth or my vagina. Yes while it was happening I was most likely thinking what are you doing girl. But I like sex it’s fun I always get off. Moving on.
On breakfast at Tiffany’s Holly says she has no other options and needs to marry Rusty Trawler bitch get a job like apparently not even an option. Or just date men who have nice jobs but not rich. No she only can take rich men.
Fudge my mind is on this guy again. I’m tired of waiting and I feel like something is going to happen to mess everything up. I’m nervous about everything. I keep getting the feeling that if it ever went anywhere he would end up finding someone else and just leave randomly with a note or a text saying it’s not working out and he found someone else. I don’t know why because I feel like he’s great. Sweet, kind, caring, sexy smile, and goofy. He also isn’t sensitive about his man hood. Like he knows who he is and things people say don’t effect him. I got upset and he was upset that I was upset it was so different from what I had before. But I still don’t know how to take him. He seems like he wants to be serious but then says things that contradict it. Moving on once again.
I finally hung up something in my apartment. I painted the walls but I haven’t hung anything up. I hung up a lion blanket that was my mother’s. She always had it hung up wherever we lived. I had to get creative and used paperclips to hang it on nails. I have alot of art work at my exes but honestly just feel like starting new here. Just leave everything in my past that I didn’t like and become the person I’ve always wanted to be. There’s lots that I’ll keep. Like I love the fact I love unconditionally. I never want to change that. I need to stop doing things for people who treat me like shit or are just too lazy to do for themselves. Need to get up and do some things so ending here on a random thought. If I ever do find someone I want to marry. I want to propose and I’ll change my last name then not to his but to something else we think of. Yeah I like that idea.
shit life 