weak

I don’t know lately. When my ex tries to verbally hurt me it works so easily. I feel like I’m weak or more sensitive lately. I feel utterly alone. He said some things that make me hate everything about my body. Make me feel ashamed for every decision I make. He always accuses me of recording it. Why so people can hear the horrible shit you say. Why would I want anyone to know or hear it. I’m so ashamed. I feel so alone. I hate how he gets in my mind and completely crushes me. He makes me lose hope. I just want to curl into a ball and disappear. I want someone to hold me but I’m to embarrassed to tell people let alone let them know I’m hurting. I hate how we can go from bring able to communicate to him saying anything he can to hurt me as much as he can. Fell asleep so ending it here it’s shit anyway