tired

I’m tired. I’m at my new job but got down time. I’m working 12 hours but I didn’t bring anything to eat. Some times I feel like it would be better if I was alone. When your alone you don’t have the luxury to not go to work. Even when your freaking out on the inside or hate it. You just go cause this is your job and you don’t have an out. I noticed if someone gives me an out I will always take it. I started a different job couple weeks ago. The amount of things wrong with it or bad about it was insane. Ok it’s a place where we take care of people. They were remolding and painting everywhere with the people right there. They regularly were out of basic supplies. Just too many things and it all made me feel uncomfortable about it. This job I feel like it’s a right fit. I’m going to commit to it. I’m going to start making things. I’m going to study. I’m also going to start exercising and getting centered.