Sometimes I wonder where is my mind. I put dates on things today for my job and I put two months ago date. Like wtf what was I thinking. Then later I was thinking of snacking and I randomly thought of something I haven’t ate in years. It’s going to sound gross but saltines with American cheese and mustard. Yeah I know wtf gross but I love it. Then later I thought about when I worked some shitty job and we’re getting free food and I didn’t get good shit I got basic shit because I didn’t want to sound greedy. Like fuck that shit job should of got insane amount of food. It was an ok job but this one guy made me incredibly uncomfortable working there. Always say random shit that creeped me out. He said he looked up my Facebook page. First of all I don’t have one because my dude is insane. Secondly is that normal to look people up on Facebook that you work with. I have no interest in looking my coworkers up on Facebook like shit I don’t care about your holiday pics or the dumb shit you post. Fucking creeped me out. I ended up leaving because he made me so uncomfortable. It honestly took me a while to consider he was harrasing me. I didn’t see the point to say anything. I’m tired and watching some bullshit tv. Might start posting more stuff. I don’t know.
Tag: annoyed
This bish
I was working the other day with someone I’m not really a fan of but friendly with because work. This person was talking about how they would never rent. They then look at me and ask me if I rent. I tell them yes. This bish then looks at me and tells me I feel sorry for you that you rent. Like bish please excuse me while I eye roll like no tomorrow. First of all houses are expensive. Second I don’t have money for a down payment. Let alone have any idea where I would be getting a home. I like my job but the odds of staying here long is not likely. I also want to continue my education and buying a house on top of that just adds more stress. Like what the fuck is wrong with people they think saying that is at all appropriate let alone not insanely rude. Fucking people now a days like shit I think some real rude bitchy shit rarely ever do I say this shit out loud. We do not need to share everything we think with people. Like damn this is one of the fucking reasons I hate people. They got to open there dumbass mouths and say some ignorant shit and act like nothing. Who raised you because they didn’t teach you to have any manners.
Fuck explaining myself
Fuck explaining myself. I am thirty years old, take care of my child, and pay my own bills. Why the fuck do I always have to explain myself. I was doing regular nothing shit. This jackass was about to wake up. Then thought about his usual morning wood and got horny. He wakes up like asshat and ask who made me horny. Like sometimes I’m just horny. Like fuck off with your assholeness. Tired of instead of just saying no he’s got to wake up accusing me of shit and being an asshole.
Resentment
One of the things I never thought I would feel is resentment for other people. People who don’t get called a fat ass every single day. People who just get to do things without someone telling them there shit and worthless. Seems like every time I leave the house I’m on the verge of tears. How does someone feel treat someone the way he does then just no even think about it. Scream at me as soon as he wakes up. Then just go to work and talk to people about everyday shit. All the times hes called me names and put me down there was only one time he said he was sorry. I made dinner for his mom’s birthday. Later he got mad call me fatass disgusting loser and dinner was fucking gross. Later he sad sorry that dinner was good. Never said anything else about all the other shit he said. How does someone say such horrible things every single fucking time. One time I was upset and said something about his teeth because he has bad teeth. I instantly felt like shit and lucky he already walked away and didn’t hear me. That was one fucking time to deaf ears. He sinks to the lowest every single time. Today he told me I better not be pregnant because I’m a shit mom. Then he continues if I am I better get a fucking abortion. Seems like every day I’m off I just want to do nothing but sleep so I don’t have to deal with him. He keeps saying I love to play the victim and say everyone treats me like shit. Absolutely not no one treats me like he does. Mostly I’m invisible and I’m mainly ok with that. I’m tired of being treated like shit. All I want to do is have a regular life. Where I don’t have ask permission to do things or get treated like a child when he’s mad. The other day he refused to take me to work. He doesn’t let me use the internet. I did laundry at the laundry mat yesterday and he acted like I was being rediculous because I wanted to take my phone. No I don’t want to sit for hours doing nothing. I want to be able to go through out my day without getting screamed at or belittled. I would like to actually show interest in the things I like and not be worried someone is going to shit talk it and tell me how stupid I am for liking it. He seems to find endless amount of things to insult me with lately it’s been I’m old. Even know he’s older than me he’s been saying shit about me being old. I just don’t know how much longer I can deal with it. I’m emotionally and physically exhausted. I try to keep the peace but seems like nothing I do is good. Im just tired of trying. Just feel utterly alone.
Hate this fucking dude
This piece of shit. Fuck this damn dude. Stupid asshole saying shit in front of my kid. What kind of piece of shit involves a child in our argument. Telling her I’m going to neglect her. Fucking sack of shit. God damnit as mad as he’s gotten me I never tell my daughter anything. fucking low life. seriously the lowest piece of shit.
Don’t look unless you expect the worst
Ok I bought a bike preparing for the day this jackass refuses to take me to work. It was the cheapest bike I could buy. I don’t normally buy things for myself but I bought this for me. I of course still got to hear shit about how I’m a selfish bitch and shitty mom. I got the mail the other day and automatically just put in my bag on my way to work. Today I looked at it it was some bs and his bank statement. Usually I don’t look at it but did this time. And fuvking a this ass hat spent shit ton of money without saying a fucking word. I talked about buying the bike. This dip shit spends over three grand without batting a fucking eye. I really want this fucking human garbage out of my fucking life. I don’t need this selfish ass hat putting me down and spending shit ton of money behind my back. Fuck you fuck you stupid asshole I hate you. Spending money that wasn’t even yours. Selfish fucking prick.
Yet another low
This psycho has hit yet another low. We went to the laundry mat and the store my daughter was ok at laundry mat and little bratty when leaving the store. He took her to the car and I check out. I put stuff in car and he instantly starts flipping shit about her additude. Yes she was not behaving but he was taking completely way to far. I had to get the rest of the laundry and I wanted to take her with me. This psycho says if i take her he’s going to be mean to her the rest of the day. Like you must be insane who the fuck say that kind of shit to a child. Obviously I took her with me he got all huffy and pissed and drove off. We waited for laundry to dry and when were about to leave we seen him waiting. Then when I had to go to work he had to be a jackass yet again. It’s getting to a point where Im worried about going to work. I don’t want him in her life. She would be better off without him. He does to her what he does to me putt her down and talk to her like she’s garbage. I fucking hate it and can’t stand him. He keeps acting like I need him so badly. You know what my life would be without him it would be happy. I would be actually fucking happy not just putting on a face and pretending. Fuck your my personal cancer slowly killing me and making my life a struggle.
Yet again screwing me over
Told him I have no interest in being with him or living with him. His response is to drive my broken car like shit and playing music at six in the morning. I just want to part and never see him again he’s gone the other way and seems to be attempting to fuck over what little I have buy completely destroying my car and making sure I wouldn’t want to live here. So yeah really fun. I don’t have money to repair my shit box of a car. It’s honestly a waste because as soon as something is fixed another thing breaks. Yeah fuck that shit car I hate you. Piece of shit Jetta. Just want this drama out of my life.
Not really a suprise at all but he did it again
Well of course he woke up acting like asshole. I desperately need to wash my work clothes because I delt with someone with infection. I was going to come alone this morning. He said would be better if we did all the laundry tonight. Guess what he refused to take me to laundry mat. So I walked here alone because I can’t wear the same clothes dirty to work. Anytime we make plans I automatically assume he’s going to pull some bs and screw me over. Lucky I live right by laundry mat and stores. My work is only like two miles away. Really considering getting a new bike. Car is turning to shit anyway so be good to get rid of it and save money for car.
Yep
I just bought something I been wanting to buy for years. It was under twenty dollars and it’s cheap and absolutely made in China. Yet I love it and I don’t want to wear it or show much interested in it. I know it’s only a matter of time until he shits on it and puts me down for even liking it. He’s going to tell me I’m selfish for always buying things for myself. This is the same man who will wait till I get off of working twelve hour shift and make me get him stuff from gas station. Spending my money and being the one to go in and get it. Because he rather wait twelve hours for me to get then to just get it himself. Same person who won’t let me go to laundry mat alone yet will just sit there while I wash and fold laundry complaining how long it’s taking. It takes as long as it takes. I’m not leaving with wet laundry so I can attempt to hang shit ton of towels around my house. Fuck that you can wait ten more minutes.
shit life 