Got some things done made dinner then got yelled at for over an hour. Apparently he was upset. He later sent me text saying he was upset we are not having as much sex as we did. Like seriously fuck so stupid. I actually thought there was something wrong no he just ranted and raved and non-stop talked to me like shit cause he was fucking horny. So nice I was feeling like shit and crying because he was horny. He told me I was fat,lazy, and should be embarrassed of the dinner I made because he was fucking horny. He told me to leave like twenty times. I started looking at apartments. I think my old job is bringing back temps and I applied really hope they called. I been looking at other places close to shit place I live. I really can’t count on him giving me rides. I need to learn to drive and get my license but I don’t know how. He makes huge deal when I try and don’t feel comfortable asking anyone else. If I try living in the city I can walk or take bus. I just got to get out of this place.
Tag: annoying
Crushed
I had some hope about changing my life but my jackass reminded me he not going to let it happen easily. Already told me not taking me to work. I told him yeah eventually I’m going to move out because I don’t like to feel like I’m hiding shit. I especially don’t like to be accused of it. He’s in other room laughing at funny videos. I just want out of this shit. I fucking hate this. Already exhausted and just want to sleep. So shitty I new he would do this anything he had to stop me from getting away. He’s not working and I’m not working but he doesn’t care he says I should get job working at store I like. I told him I wouldn’t make enough. Just another way of keeping me put. Working a job that would just barely pay my bills. Yeah that’s what I want to do.
Annoyed
Looking into jobs to get away. Then this asshole got to say shit like your just doing this to get away. So then not going to take me to interview. Takes me and then expects sexual shit like fuck my life. Have interview and said I wanted a certain amount they said ok they usually start off at a little lower but I should be able to get you that. I wait two days and he finally gets back says he can get me less then he mentioned like wtf really. Why even act like my price was an option then just say o here’s less than I mentioned. Then he acted like I should be happy about it. He said in 90 days go up to closer to what I wanted. I don’t know if I should take or not. I only went with this place because I wanted job right by were I live and he got shit farther away and less money. Just another time a person just completely ignores what I say.
Support
Do you ever get really excited about an idea. You think of your idea all day making mental notes and working out a plan. Then you finally tell someone and they install shit on it. Well that’s what my life sucking asshole does every time. I’m still some what lost in my plans for a solid career. But anytime I’ve ever showed interest in something he’s always right there to shit on it or squash it. I thought about photography because I love taking photos of this right away he shuts down and tells me I need to look into something to make money. Ok I thought about catering I enjoy cooking and good at planning and think I can do it. Again shit on it quickly tells me he doesn’t think it would work. I even think of the police right away he doesn’t think they would hire me cause I’m a girl. Ok other ideas outside of careers I want to put up table and wrap people’s presents for free just something nice to do. No right away shit on it people are going to accuse you of stealing. Another time I wanted to volunteer at a animal shelter ok says good idea. I go to meeting still good go to intro day finish that and on way home says idk when your going to be able to do this I’m so busy. Ok that ones not entirely on him I was working shit job at time and guy there also volunteered. But he started really creeping me out asking way personal questions and looking me up online. Either way I was real creeped out and didn’t want to risk running into him. Thought about doing at another one not as close. I try to always support him and his ideas. Why can’t he just pretend to like my ideas. Like fuck you can’t make an effort.
Wtf people
ter·ror·ist
- a person who uses unlawful violence and intimidation, especially against civilians, in the pursuit of political aims.
Yesterday was a sad day not only for American’s but for all people. Terrorist who attacked the capitol building apparently with the hope to show the election wasn’t stolen. Ok so to prove something were going to completely ignore all the evidence and destroy government property. Inflicting fear into people just doing there jobs. Then act like bunch of jackass’s going through people’s offices and taking pictures of yourself. This was not a protest. This was terrorist trying to get there way. You know what a protest is when they had sit ins and sat at white chairs and got attacked and didn’t move. Attending an all white school as a black child so others can. Destruction is not a act of protest. It is an act of terrorism. Every thing has gone over again and again nothing was stolen. You destroying something to somehow show it was stolen is the most rediculous immature thing to do. I have an insane about of shit in my life that is sucks I’m not going to cry and whine about it and destroy things. Suck it up and deal with it. Shame on those people for doing that.
pro·test·er
- a person who publicly demonstrates strong objection to something; a demonstrator
I really would like to know there thought process. We’re going to destroy shit and tell them it’s stolen. There going to be your right where ignoring the votes completely and he can continue his bullshit. Did they think people would be proud of them. Or that people would praise there heroic efforts. Sorry but you didn’t do anything good. You put lives in danger because you didn’t agree with something. In the words of Saturday night live when you watch Titanic you think your rose but you Billy Zane.
Being hopeful
Hopefully this jackass will be working alot so I can get things done. I have no problem doing things. Except for when he’s home most of the time if I’m not doing anything I like to avoid his dumb ass. Sucks on weekends and random days he’s off. He’s never willing to do things we need to do like get rid of donations. Or take recycling. Or even going to laundry mat. Its not going to magically happen dip shit. I got so annoyed that he doesn’t take me to laundry mat that I just ended up buying mini washing machine. I loved it. Little thing took some time to wash shit but I could do at home. All summer I washed everything and would hang to dry. Couple times I washed and he said he would take me to laundry mat to dry and I worked all day washing things and then he said he was too tired. He too tired to sit in car while I carry shut in dry it and carry out. I had to rewash everything the next day. He did this bullshit three fucking times. Like two weeks apart. Told you he had no respect for me or my time. Royal asshole.
The spinner side stopped spinning and I didn’t think I could fix so got rid of it. Miss you girl. You worked hard.
Watching tv
Ok I am rarely alone and rarely get to sit around and actually pay attention to a show I want to watch. But today my daughter was asleep and asshole fell asleep. So I was able to watch what I wanted without someone elses whiny comments that they hate it it’s old and stupid. I watched the first episode of columbo and shit I loved it. Just being alone being able to talk out loud and eat popcorn without someone’s bitchy complaints. It was heaven I loved it. I really can’t wait to do it again. I can watch things with my daughter but she’s always asking question after question. I love that she wants to know but sometimes she needs to go away. This asshole always cries I watch same shit over and over again. I watch it because I love it. He will watch anything just to watch something then when over remember nothing about it. I have probably rewatched Murder she wrote ten times. Some episodes I’m sure I’ve seen thirty times. I love it I like how she’s a badass and does what she wants. I like making fun of it because they never have any real evidence. I love the episodes in Cabot cove. It’s my favorite show and I like watching it but every time I do I have to hear someone bitch about it. Then he likes to pretend he’s being generous when letting me watch it right before he leaves. This man will put on show then take a bath and if I change it he will bitch. Fuck you I choose Murder she wrote over you. No hesitation at all.
Wtf brina
Ok I watched the last season of chilling adventures of Sabrina. Ok what the fuck. This is how you end it. Why everything was going so good then shit. Also how the fuck did it get cancelled. That show was great. It was cute and spooky and so good to watch. Ok rewatching some times is hard because your like fuck do you listen to anyone. Why ask if your going to do what you want regardless of the possible outcomes. Ok I get your good but one part there picking top boy and she’s annoyed got to be boy. Ok I get that it’s bull but why the fuck she assume it should be her instead of Prudence who knows more and practiced more. Ok there were some things I loved. I loved her one aunt finding love and Theo finding his self. Annoyed that they had to make Theo want to be a boy not because theres anything wrong with it. But when we first see Theo she’s just a Tom boy which I get. Then it was like out of no where wants to be boy like it just seemed like jump. Like not every girl who is a Tom boy wants to be boy. Like I was a Tom boy growning up hated how people acted like there was something wrong with it. Also what the fuck with Lilith I’m calling bullshit I don’t think she would do that to Adam. She was so smart and planning in earlier episodes. Then in end seemed like just did whatever. Also always needed Lilith in earlier seasons then all the sudden they never even talk to her. The last season just seems very different from the rest.
Getting older
It’s seems like as soon as I hit a certain age my body decided it’s not going to take this shit anymore. Everything seems to upset my stomach except salad. Cheese or to much pasta kills me. Meat goes right through me. My back is weak I tried exercising my knee ended up hurting and it freaked me out so I stopped. I was fine then it was like all the sudden everything hurts or upsets my body. Hurt my neck the other day I don’t even know how. I have some shit on my hand cut i don’t know where it came from. I keep finding bruising on my legs. I wake up and am still exhausted. I don’t know what is normal never been like this before. Fucking sucks
Alone
Sitting alone not really in mood for anything. Ate some milk and cookies. Because I’m santa and also because I don’t want them to go bad. I don’t like wasting anything. Food, fabric, time anything. I have most of a twenty pound turkey to do something with. Thinking turkey soup but I’m not really a fan of turkey. I hate to waste anything but my life suck/ asshole he waste anything. My daughter doesn’t want to eat the huge plate of food she had to have throw it away. He doesn’t put away rest of pizza whatever just throw it away. My daughter spills on her shirt just throw it away why try to clean it. Just another thing about him I hate. It’s so spoiled to just throw useful things away. People have hard time feeding there families but whatever just waste as much food as you want apparently. I used to pack my leftovers for lunch at work. They always tasted great and I would of never of ate if had other options. Made him lunch before he would just waste it all. anytime I make him anything or do anything for him he always has a but. It was good but needed salt. Meat was delicious but carrots needed cooked longer. Made him facemask with vw logo on it he said he likes it but it’s a little small. I asked him to put on before I finished to made sure it fit. Why does he always have to complain or put down things I do. Sometimes I feel like his shitty way to make me feel like everything I do isn’t good enough.
I don’t know if people like me adding photos or not. I don’t know. Sometimes I like other
Then there’s times I’ll make new recipes. Most of the time he won’t even try them. He just says I won’t like it. Even my five year old tries things. He basically eats like picky bratty child. Mainly because he is a picky bratty man child.
shit life 