You ever dislike someone then they do something and your like shit whole new level of hatred. He continues to make new levels of hatred. First was when he called me fat when I was pregnant. Then came when my daughter was born and told me I was shit mom and thank God my mom wasn’t around to see the shit mom I am. Another time this psycho brought up something that happened a year ago like it was yesterday and fuck if I remember that stupid shit and acted like caught me in lie. See now say something else entirely. Another pretty fucked up thing making me message dirty things so he can masturbate and get off. Some thing he would be making me message would be saying I would like to fuck his friend. His creepy always dirty looking gross lazy selfish friend. Then he would threaten to show everyone when I leave. Including naked photos we took when we got along. Said would send to everyone in my family and at my job. Couple times he refused to take me to work if didn’t “help”. This is when I was the only one working and couldn’t miss any days or would be fired. Before him I would never take off work. With him I use to take off because sometimes I just needed day off of explaining to him who was near me or of people talked to. I’m a huge fucking introvert but apparently as soon as I get to work he thinks I’m going to love small talk with random people. So I would have to explain how far away people were. Because he’s insane.
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Crushed
I had some hope about changing my life but my jackass reminded me he not going to let it happen easily. Already told me not taking me to work. I told him yeah eventually I’m going to move out because I don’t like to feel like I’m hiding shit. I especially don’t like to be accused of it. He’s in other room laughing at funny videos. I just want out of this shit. I fucking hate this. Already exhausted and just want to sleep. So shitty I new he would do this anything he had to stop me from getting away. He’s not working and I’m not working but he doesn’t care he says I should get job working at store I like. I told him I wouldn’t make enough. Just another way of keeping me put. Working a job that would just barely pay my bills. Yeah that’s what I want to do.
Annoyed
Looking into jobs to get away. Then this asshole got to say shit like your just doing this to get away. So then not going to take me to interview. Takes me and then expects sexual shit like fuck my life. Have interview and said I wanted a certain amount they said ok they usually start off at a little lower but I should be able to get you that. I wait two days and he finally gets back says he can get me less then he mentioned like wtf really. Why even act like my price was an option then just say o here’s less than I mentioned. Then he acted like I should be happy about it. He said in 90 days go up to closer to what I wanted. I don’t know if I should take or not. I only went with this place because I wanted job right by were I live and he got shit farther away and less money. Just another time a person just completely ignores what I say.
Restaurants
Fuck restaurants. Fuck people at restaurants who mess up food on purpose. This is why I don’t go out to eat. Fuck that every time I make food it’s good. Why is it you can’t get consistent food at restaurants. I worked in food and they have many things to make sure food is supposed to be the same. Is it no not at all. It’s why I hate restaurants. I found only one were food is consistent. We get ribs and spaghetti there and it’s always great. Errrrrr damn shit
On a side note ever complain and they give you gift card for the same location only. You already fucked it enough that I would complain which takes a lot. Why would I want to go back like fuck you and your bs gift card. Your location sucks why would I want to try again I want to be disappointed again. And guess what I was disapointed again. Stupid
Support
Do you ever get really excited about an idea. You think of your idea all day making mental notes and working out a plan. Then you finally tell someone and they install shit on it. Well that’s what my life sucking asshole does every time. I’m still some what lost in my plans for a solid career. But anytime I’ve ever showed interest in something he’s always right there to shit on it or squash it. I thought about photography because I love taking photos of this right away he shuts down and tells me I need to look into something to make money. Ok I thought about catering I enjoy cooking and good at planning and think I can do it. Again shit on it quickly tells me he doesn’t think it would work. I even think of the police right away he doesn’t think they would hire me cause I’m a girl. Ok other ideas outside of careers I want to put up table and wrap people’s presents for free just something nice to do. No right away shit on it people are going to accuse you of stealing. Another time I wanted to volunteer at a animal shelter ok says good idea. I go to meeting still good go to intro day finish that and on way home says idk when your going to be able to do this I’m so busy. Ok that ones not entirely on him I was working shit job at time and guy there also volunteered. But he started really creeping me out asking way personal questions and looking me up online. Either way I was real creeped out and didn’t want to risk running into him. Thought about doing at another one not as close. I try to always support him and his ideas. Why can’t he just pretend to like my ideas. Like fuck you can’t make an effort.
Wtf people
ter·ror·ist
- a person who uses unlawful violence and intimidation, especially against civilians, in the pursuit of political aims.
Yesterday was a sad day not only for American’s but for all people. Terrorist who attacked the capitol building apparently with the hope to show the election wasn’t stolen. Ok so to prove something were going to completely ignore all the evidence and destroy government property. Inflicting fear into people just doing there jobs. Then act like bunch of jackass’s going through people’s offices and taking pictures of yourself. This was not a protest. This was terrorist trying to get there way. You know what a protest is when they had sit ins and sat at white chairs and got attacked and didn’t move. Attending an all white school as a black child so others can. Destruction is not a act of protest. It is an act of terrorism. Every thing has gone over again and again nothing was stolen. You destroying something to somehow show it was stolen is the most rediculous immature thing to do. I have an insane about of shit in my life that is sucks I’m not going to cry and whine about it and destroy things. Suck it up and deal with it. Shame on those people for doing that.
pro·test·er
- a person who publicly demonstrates strong objection to something; a demonstrator
I really would like to know there thought process. We’re going to destroy shit and tell them it’s stolen. There going to be your right where ignoring the votes completely and he can continue his bullshit. Did they think people would be proud of them. Or that people would praise there heroic efforts. Sorry but you didn’t do anything good. You put lives in danger because you didn’t agree with something. In the words of Saturday night live when you watch Titanic you think your rose but you Billy Zane.
Being hopeful
Hopefully this jackass will be working alot so I can get things done. I have no problem doing things. Except for when he’s home most of the time if I’m not doing anything I like to avoid his dumb ass. Sucks on weekends and random days he’s off. He’s never willing to do things we need to do like get rid of donations. Or take recycling. Or even going to laundry mat. Its not going to magically happen dip shit. I got so annoyed that he doesn’t take me to laundry mat that I just ended up buying mini washing machine. I loved it. Little thing took some time to wash shit but I could do at home. All summer I washed everything and would hang to dry. Couple times I washed and he said he would take me to laundry mat to dry and I worked all day washing things and then he said he was too tired. He too tired to sit in car while I carry shut in dry it and carry out. I had to rewash everything the next day. He did this bullshit three fucking times. Like two weeks apart. Told you he had no respect for me or my time. Royal asshole.
The spinner side stopped spinning and I didn’t think I could fix so got rid of it. Miss you girl. You worked hard.
Watching tv
Ok I am rarely alone and rarely get to sit around and actually pay attention to a show I want to watch. But today my daughter was asleep and asshole fell asleep. So I was able to watch what I wanted without someone elses whiny comments that they hate it it’s old and stupid. I watched the first episode of columbo and shit I loved it. Just being alone being able to talk out loud and eat popcorn without someone’s bitchy complaints. It was heaven I loved it. I really can’t wait to do it again. I can watch things with my daughter but she’s always asking question after question. I love that she wants to know but sometimes she needs to go away. This asshole always cries I watch same shit over and over again. I watch it because I love it. He will watch anything just to watch something then when over remember nothing about it. I have probably rewatched Murder she wrote ten times. Some episodes I’m sure I’ve seen thirty times. I love it I like how she’s a badass and does what she wants. I like making fun of it because they never have any real evidence. I love the episodes in Cabot cove. It’s my favorite show and I like watching it but every time I do I have to hear someone bitch about it. Then he likes to pretend he’s being generous when letting me watch it right before he leaves. This man will put on show then take a bath and if I change it he will bitch. Fuck you I choose Murder she wrote over you. No hesitation at all.
Blog
I never know what to blog about. What would people like to read about. Happy times, hard times, crafts. I don’t know I’m looking more to my future lately. Thinking about going to school for some things. I’m scared but looking. I don’t get how people can do things and not be sure it’s going to work out. Ok I can do it with little things. I try sewing something it doesn’t work and that’s ok I didn’t spend years on it or thousands of dollars no biggie. But if I did this it’s going to effect other people and I think about missing out on my daughter’s life. I know it’s a little dramatic but I don’t want her to miss out on anything. But still thinking hard about it.
Wtf brina
Ok I watched the last season of chilling adventures of Sabrina. Ok what the fuck. This is how you end it. Why everything was going so good then shit. Also how the fuck did it get cancelled. That show was great. It was cute and spooky and so good to watch. Ok rewatching some times is hard because your like fuck do you listen to anyone. Why ask if your going to do what you want regardless of the possible outcomes. Ok I get your good but one part there picking top boy and she’s annoyed got to be boy. Ok I get that it’s bull but why the fuck she assume it should be her instead of Prudence who knows more and practiced more. Ok there were some things I loved. I loved her one aunt finding love and Theo finding his self. Annoyed that they had to make Theo want to be a boy not because theres anything wrong with it. But when we first see Theo she’s just a Tom boy which I get. Then it was like out of no where wants to be boy like it just seemed like jump. Like not every girl who is a Tom boy wants to be boy. Like I was a Tom boy growning up hated how people acted like there was something wrong with it. Also what the fuck with Lilith I’m calling bullshit I don’t think she would do that to Adam. She was so smart and planning in earlier episodes. Then in end seemed like just did whatever. Also always needed Lilith in earlier seasons then all the sudden they never even talk to her. The last season just seems very different from the rest.
shit life 