Just wanted to chill and take it easy build up to doing stuff. But this asshole has to be in a mood. He’s watching a movie and I’m in my room watching videos. So basically the same shit but different rooms. But apparently that makes me a shitty Mom and lazy cause I’m not out. When he’s home it’s usually me doing stuff I need to do or me avoiding him. I don’t understand why he always wants to know everything I do. He does whatever I don’t ask and I shouldn’t have to explain every fucking thing I do. Then he acts like I’m the one controlling what he does. This asshole was supposed to take our daughter to store yesterday to buy toy he promised. Yet what does he do he gets his mom to do it and just let’s his mom watch her. Doesn’t even tell me she’s going to her grandma. Like what the fuck I didn’t even say goodbye. I say this shit and just says your fault you weren’t up. I was up I thought you were going to the store. Every fucking time I ask him to stop somewhere while he’s out acts like how dare I ask him to do shit for me. Yeah I’m the only one who is going to eat the food. I made dinner every day this week and yesterday I wasn’t feeling good and wanted food out I ask him to pick up Chipotle not pay for it just stop and get as he drives by. But no asking to much he’s not doing anything for me what have I done for him. I told him cook, clean, teach our daughter. He acts like it’s nothing he wants sexual shit. I have little to no interest in anything sexual with him. I don’t understand how he expects it and treats me the way he does. He calls me fatass and gross but I’m expected to suck his dick. Yeah fuck no asshole. Then he acts like if I don’t do shit he’ll find chick who would. Wow ok I don’t want to be with him but thought that seven fucking years of being together he had some kind of loyalty. I don’t know why I would think that he absolutely no respect for me. Every time I try to leave he makes shit ton of threats. He’s going to get my daughter taken away. Its hard to see a end in sight when every time I try to make an escape plans life fucks them up or him. Another to be continued
Tag: blog
Ok just to clarify some shit I don’t spell check or pay attention to what I write. I think of shit and just write it down. I also don’t proofread anything which is probably bad but honestly if I did I would never blog anything. Unless I’m upset I don’t really have plan on what I’m going to say. Ok watching TV with my daughter and what the fuck is with kids tv these days really dumbing shit down. New show where kids friend is a garbage truck. Why the hell would they think a kid should play with a garbage truck. Also going to talk shit about curious George fuck I loathe to that fucking monkey. Every fucking time a grown ass adult is suprised a monkey does some stupid shit. It’s a monkey shouldn’t be a pet at all. Is it cause he’s a man he’s got to be so oblivious to dumb shit about to happen. Tired of all these dumbass kids shows showing kids getting into dumbass problems she don’t need anymore fucking ideas. Also must they glorify everything. Everyone has great jobs, live in nice houses in nice areas. Rarely ever see anyone in apartment like way to make me feel even worst about my life. Like fuck man I would love piglets house it’s adorable. Everyone usually has a animal. We had fish they died so tried bird was good until it also died way sadder when bird dies. I fucking cried felt bad about not getting it good last meal. It would of been watermelon he loved watermelon. She been asking for a dog I want a dog too it fucking sucks miss having a dog. I used to be in no dog building but know everyone saying they need emotional support animals every asshole has a dog. Huge fucking dogs that take huge shits everywhere and there owners ignore. My downstairs neighbor has a dog and has to have his patio door open so everyone can hear is fucking dog bark all day and night. Yeah asshole. Such a asshole he non-stop talks shit if he hears other people’s dogs like what. Your fucking dog is annoying. I really don’t understand how that makes sense in his brain. His do barks totally ok other dog barks how fucking dare they. What is the idea behind getting the biggest fucking dog you can get you live in small apartment and don’t walk it. I loved walking my dog. We used to go on like five walks a day. Watching shit about getting dog for Christmas. Already asked over twenty times. Fun times
Ok what the fuck I’m still fucking awake. Non-stop thinking about fucking everything and anything. So figured my family kinda selfish, asshole is a asshole and inconsiderate, the bs friends I had sucked always. Also fuck my family goes for shitty people. Like we pick shitty people they treat us shitty and we have disappointing life of shitty times. Fuck when I stay up late thinking this is what happens. I fucking over think everything and regret every decision I’ve ever made. I mean I already regret everything but usually I’m not thinking of other shit. Other day I reminded asshole how I don’t want to be with him. As soon I said it I regretted it. Why who fucking knows he treats me like shit and never considers me. Yet I felt bad I should of kept to myself I know I don’t want to be with him I don’t need to shove in his face. I fucking hate it I reget everything and way over think. My dad’s birthday other day and I knew and remembered and seen him but I can’t say happy birthday to him I don’t know it’s too personal and I’m weird about saying shit. If you had birthday when I knew you I remembered but just never said anything cause I didn’t think we were close enough to say shit. Yeah fucking weirdo I know. Was one guy I work with I knew his birthday was coming up was probably only person I ever said happy birthday to without someone else saying it first. I even hugged him and I’m not a hugger. I basically only hug my daughter and nieces and nephews. Miss that guy always talked to me like person. It was nice. I always feel like got shitty life because something I’ve done. To be continued……
What the hell
Ok bought something on website said it uses ups. Ok good never have problems with ups but no they ship with fed x and what the shit I always have problems with them. Amazon and ups they fucking scan everything fed x is like asking drunk lazy cousin to do shit. It’s not going to happen and some lame ass excuse. Lost in transit bs someone stole that shit. Like you don’t take random packages to random places. How is shit lost in transit where is it getting lost. There’s not a fucking black hole in the warehouse. Fuck those people who stole my shit cause guess what I order shit no one wants so have fun with my water balloons you ass hat. Also fuck my random neighbors who steal my packages yeah Walmart takes pictures of that shit so I know was delivered. Hope you had fun with my laundry soap, hot glue gun and training wheels you pieces of human garbage. What the fuck you thinking I’m buying dip shits. You think I’m getting gold in the fucking mail we all living in shitty apartment building clearly no one hear is buying anything worth it. On a side bitch fuck you Dell for not putting my fucking computer in an unmarked box. How fucking stupid do you have to be why don’t you just put the fucking price on it also make shit easier for them to resell. Rambling another package stole had kid rain boots, embroidery scissors, kindergarten school supplies,and a dress hope you made big money off that you cock suckers. Eat shit and die yeah still annoyed
Yep
Why is it this asshole can go out to get things for himself. Yet if we need something for everyone in the house there’s no way he’s going to get it. This man only thinks of himself and his needs this minute. He doesn’t plan ahead for anything or schedule. His mom finally tells him what she would like for Christmas he didn’t look one time to see about availability or price. Just completely ignores it and expects me to do it. I already got her gift card, making placemats and making hanging towels. Can you do anything. Nope I bought the shit today. We have ten days till Christmas. Not like he didn’t have money he just always chooses to spend on fun things. Instead of buying shit he needs like gloves,socks, or underwear he chooses to go out to eat or buy shit we don’t need. It would be nice to sometimes not feel like I’m dating a man child.
Fucking shit
Ok let’s me bitch about home schooling. Nothing like going over shit for hole page and she does it correctly the entire time until she gets to the last question. I don’t know how many times she has completely forgotten everything we done. I swear sometimes she acts like she’s completely clueless unless im giving her all of my attention. It’s so aggravating dealing with her some times. Really didn’t help her father tell her she doesn’t have to listen to me. Who would of fucking thought telling a child to not to listen to her mother would fucking not help. Sweet baby fuck one of the stupidest shit he’s said to her. She used to do her school work everyday no problem. Now like fucking nightmare some days. And absolutely no surprise he doesn’t try to get her to do anything after saying such stupid shit. I have to say every fucking thing like seven times to get anyone to hear anything. They hear nothing unless I yell then bitch I yell. Fuck I got to say shit seven times and then yell. Listen the first time. Shit
Tired
I’m tired about to go to bed. Got shit ton to do tomorrow. Looking forward to it but at same time not I feel like something is going to come up and mess up my plans. Usually does which is why I don’t make plans. Which sucks I am a planner and a list maker. I usually have idea what I’m doing otherwise I just do nothing all day. My daughter is really into green eggs and ham tv show so we been reading alot of Dr suess lately. Ok I like the main shit but I also feel like there’s a lot of hype in his books. Like ok green eggs and ham is good but some of them are long and the fucky names of shit is annoying. I’m tired and not in mood or paying enough attention to want to read this dumb shit. Like I get the rhyming but can you at least make it shit I think my kid would be able to read. The more I read kids books the more I’m like what the fuck this is a horrible book. Green eggs and ham basically telling you to give in to peer pressure. Rainbow fish is telling you that you need to give people shit to be your friends. I reread it once then I was like never again this is bullshit. Bad enough tv shows showing her stupid shit. She keeps saying that she wants to stay home alone I ask her why she say kids on tv get to be home alone. Like damn you tv. Ok overly tired. Night
Didn’t last long
Got woken up at one in the morning and already messed up my sleep. Hopefully will go back but I don’t have much hope of it. I worked nights for about four years I loved it not being a morning person. The entire time I worked first shift I hated it I couldn’t get enough sleep. The shitty thing is I always blame myself. I told my sister about it and anytime I tell anyone about anything it always gets messed up. Talked about how much I love my job bam get laid off. Talk about a promotion my supervisor wants to give me bam she quit and other person in charge is utterly oblivious to anything. I really don’t like talking about anything to people as soon as I do it’s like I just got to get shit on and put in my place. It could be the littlest stupidest shit but as soon as I mention it something happens and falls apart. Errrrrr the annoyance i just never get excited anymore even when I went on vacation I kept thinking something was going to ruin it.
Love these
I don’t care how old I get I fucking love these lunchables. I probably will always eat them. There are just some things from your childhood that really stick with you. Food wise this is one of mine. You ever go back to some show you used to watch when you were younger and absolutely hate it. I tried watching Austin Powers and that shit is beyond terrible. Honestly rewatching sex and the city is hard like fuck you Carrie. Go Miranda she’s a badass and love Steve. Even know I usually don’t like people named Steve. I’m a big believer of names usually tell the person character. Like most Nick’s Mike’s are assholes. Brittany is an annoying person. Nicole’s don’t give a shit. Smores are still good but so sweet I can only eat one. I don’t know but lately I been wanting to change things in my life. I thought only little changes for the better but the more I think the more I’m like fuck that I want to change most everything about my life. My car,move,go to school, maybe different state or out of America.
Finally a normal sleep schedule
Holly shit I finally did it. I’m on a normal sleep schedule. Go to bed at normal time and wake up early it’s fucking awesome. I get so much done. Other day I made homemade flour tortillas for quesdillas. Went to the store today and so fucking busy miss shopping in empty store. Why do people need to stand four feet away to look at shit. Like always I forgot shit. I keep getting rid of shit but it’s like shit pop ups out of nowhere. Get rid of ton of stuff but next day same amount of shit there. Tired of having things I don’t use. Get rid of all this BS then hopefully the asshole next.
shit life 