Why is it getting started so annoying long. What happened to the times where you wanted to do something like go to school or get job you basically just had to walk in the door. Getting a job is making a resume no one’s going to look at. Applying to a hundred places and maybe get three call backs. Where they ask you about your resume they clearly didn’t read. Then put down all of your experience and act like your a horrible person for leaving a shit job. Or good forbid you leave without giving notice. That’s bullshit I was getting harassed and told management and they acted like I was being dramatic so I quit that. or another job just telling me I’m going to get a promotion and dick me around for months then randomly give it to someone else after I was basically doing the job. They don’t deserve notice. Another thing is so many places act like we should be insanely loyal to some shit place constantly screwing there employees. Fuck you think I have to be loyal to do my job properly. Get the fuck out of here.
Tag: career
Unsure
I’m always so unsure of what I want to do. I got a job thank God. But know I’m thinking about going to school and I don’t know if I should go to a community college or a trade school. A community college I think would be cheaper in the end and I would be able to transfer credits. Why the hell don’t they actually tell you about this shit in school. Or tell you about options in school. All I new was college. I never thought about going because my family was broke as fuck and I didn’t know there was other options. It’s one of the many ways schools were letting us down. They also need to emphasize how to properly pick a career. In my school it was basically just do whatever not talk about if it’s suitable, if your going to be able to actually find a job, and what are schooling options. I could bitch forever about American schools they suck. I’ll complain about another time.
Shitty so far
Woke up to me getting yelled at for an hour. Was told I was fat, disgusting, lazy, and stupid. Im looking into going to school. But sometimes I just don’t want to do anything but lay in bed. I’m tired of fighting or being yelled at. I barely have the energy to deal with this asshole and then to add school. Then I think I can’t count on him and need to do something that will pay good. I talked to someone from one of the schools and she asked me why I wanted to go to school? Is this a dumb question or is it just me. Like obviously to continue my education to have an actual career and not just a job. What did she think I was going to say I like going into insane debt. Then at same time she acts like I should just jump into it. Like no I’m not going into debt on a whim. She acted like she really couldn’t care less as long as went there. Like it’s a lot of money for a school that might suck. I looked into a nursing school but read so many bad reviews that I’m like idk what’s point if it’s shitty school.
Upset
Really upset lately. Really feel like my life has been on hold last couple of years. I’m not expecting to win the lottery but I just want a job that I don’t feel like is going to randomly shut down getting paid a reasonable amount of money. I hate interviews there always so rediculous. I keep getting the question why do you want to work here. Like fucking honestly what do they expect people to say. I need a job you need a position filled. They act like you should be so into there company. I only found out about your company when I see open position. Is it just me or these people a little fucking rediculous to act like I should be like I love your company and heard amazing things. One job I heard from many people that it was a horrible place to work for shit pay,shit work,and treat you like shit. I told a job recruiter that and she acted dumb founded I wouldn’t want to work there. Like are you fucking retarded like how are you suprised I wouldn’t want to work for shitty pay for shitty people. Honestly what a dumbass.
F that
Seen my old job hiring. I worked there and loved it I worked alone and was never bothered. Work was easy and days went by quickly. They left go off all the temps do to lack of work in May because of covid. So I apply to many jobs get a call interview and I tell her I worked there before she says I didn’t look at anything and I’ll call you back. Ok I think I’ll way couple days for her call. She never calls and I try using number off Google that doesn’t work. I go through website and use that number takes twenty minutes finally got to talk to someone and they just say idk I’ll tell them to call you back. Ok fine whatever I liked the job. Another week goes by and nothing. So I go on the website again and talk to someone through messenger. They say there look into it and they assure me someone is going to call me back within a couple of days. Again ok fine. But no fucking nothing. I go on there Facebook and see there having a open interviews ok I go and talk to someone and ask about coming back. And what is the bs response I get back o we’re not bring back people who worked here before. I asked why and that’s all they fucking say. I did my fucking job,was on time, worked hard, helped other employees when they needed help, I didn’t leave early or fuck around. But apparently fuck all they they just don’t want to bring anyone back who worked there before because they said so. Are you fucking serious. Fuck you hope you struggle to fill the positions. Assholes. Waste of fucking time and energy making sure I did everything I could just to be thrown away. Way to fuck over some loyal hardworking people. Cause I wasn’t hired in so not really like I mattered apparently. Fuck you.
Get out
Got some things done made dinner then got yelled at for over an hour. Apparently he was upset. He later sent me text saying he was upset we are not having as much sex as we did. Like seriously fuck so stupid. I actually thought there was something wrong no he just ranted and raved and non-stop talked to me like shit cause he was fucking horny. So nice I was feeling like shit and crying because he was horny. He told me I was fat,lazy, and should be embarrassed of the dinner I made because he was fucking horny. He told me to leave like twenty times. I started looking at apartments. I think my old job is bringing back temps and I applied really hope they called. I been looking at other places close to shit place I live. I really can’t count on him giving me rides. I need to learn to drive and get my license but I don’t know how. He makes huge deal when I try and don’t feel comfortable asking anyone else. If I try living in the city I can walk or take bus. I just got to get out of this place.
Crushed
I had some hope about changing my life but my jackass reminded me he not going to let it happen easily. Already told me not taking me to work. I told him yeah eventually I’m going to move out because I don’t like to feel like I’m hiding shit. I especially don’t like to be accused of it. He’s in other room laughing at funny videos. I just want out of this shit. I fucking hate this. Already exhausted and just want to sleep. So shitty I new he would do this anything he had to stop me from getting away. He’s not working and I’m not working but he doesn’t care he says I should get job working at store I like. I told him I wouldn’t make enough. Just another way of keeping me put. Working a job that would just barely pay my bills. Yeah that’s what I want to do.
Annoyed
Looking into jobs to get away. Then this asshole got to say shit like your just doing this to get away. So then not going to take me to interview. Takes me and then expects sexual shit like fuck my life. Have interview and said I wanted a certain amount they said ok they usually start off at a little lower but I should be able to get you that. I wait two days and he finally gets back says he can get me less then he mentioned like wtf really. Why even act like my price was an option then just say o here’s less than I mentioned. Then he acted like I should be happy about it. He said in 90 days go up to closer to what I wanted. I don’t know if I should take or not. I only went with this place because I wanted job right by were I live and he got shit farther away and less money. Just another time a person just completely ignores what I say.
Support
Do you ever get really excited about an idea. You think of your idea all day making mental notes and working out a plan. Then you finally tell someone and they install shit on it. Well that’s what my life sucking asshole does every time. I’m still some what lost in my plans for a solid career. But anytime I’ve ever showed interest in something he’s always right there to shit on it or squash it. I thought about photography because I love taking photos of this right away he shuts down and tells me I need to look into something to make money. Ok I thought about catering I enjoy cooking and good at planning and think I can do it. Again shit on it quickly tells me he doesn’t think it would work. I even think of the police right away he doesn’t think they would hire me cause I’m a girl. Ok other ideas outside of careers I want to put up table and wrap people’s presents for free just something nice to do. No right away shit on it people are going to accuse you of stealing. Another time I wanted to volunteer at a animal shelter ok says good idea. I go to meeting still good go to intro day finish that and on way home says idk when your going to be able to do this I’m so busy. Ok that ones not entirely on him I was working shit job at time and guy there also volunteered. But he started really creeping me out asking way personal questions and looking me up online. Either way I was real creeped out and didn’t want to risk running into him. Thought about doing at another one not as close. I try to always support him and his ideas. Why can’t he just pretend to like my ideas. Like fuck you can’t make an effort.
Blog
I never know what to blog about. What would people like to read about. Happy times, hard times, crafts. I don’t know I’m looking more to my future lately. Thinking about going to school for some things. I’m scared but looking. I don’t get how people can do things and not be sure it’s going to work out. Ok I can do it with little things. I try sewing something it doesn’t work and that’s ok I didn’t spend years on it or thousands of dollars no biggie. But if I did this it’s going to effect other people and I think about missing out on my daughter’s life. I know it’s a little dramatic but I don’t want her to miss out on anything. But still thinking hard about it.
shit life 