Mornings

Why do mornings always have to suck. If I’m working shits going on. If I’m home this asshole is bitching and wanting to argue about everything. I usually don’t say anything because if I do they last all fucking day. It doesn’t matter what I say because I’m always wrong and he’s always right and I’m horrible person. I woke up and wanted to just run to the store alone for some things but I know if I go I’ll get accused of cheating. And told I’m a shit person. I need milk and we’re really low like fucks sake. I hate you. Make everything little thing I do a huge big fucking deal. Stupid asshole

Emotionally exhausted

Just wanted to chill and take it easy build up to doing stuff. But this asshole has to be in a mood. He’s watching a movie and I’m in my room watching videos. So basically the same shit but different rooms. But apparently that makes me a shitty Mom and lazy cause I’m not out. When he’s home it’s usually me doing stuff I need to do or me avoiding him. I don’t understand why he always wants to know everything I do. He does whatever I don’t ask and I shouldn’t have to explain every fucking thing I do. Then he acts like I’m the one controlling what he does. This asshole was supposed to take our daughter to store yesterday to buy toy he promised. Yet what does he do he gets his mom to do it and just let’s his mom watch her. Doesn’t even tell me she’s going to her grandma. Like what the fuck I didn’t even say goodbye. I say this shit and just says your fault you weren’t up. I was up I thought you were going to the store. Every fucking time I ask him to stop somewhere while he’s out acts like how dare I ask him to do shit for me. Yeah I’m the only one who is going to eat the food. I made dinner every day this week and yesterday I wasn’t feeling good and wanted food out I ask him to pick up Chipotle not pay for it just stop and get as he drives by. But no asking to much he’s not doing anything for me what have I done for him. I told him cook, clean, teach our daughter. He acts like it’s nothing he wants sexual shit. I have little to no interest in anything sexual with him. I don’t understand how he expects it and treats me the way he does. He calls me fatass and gross but I’m expected to suck his dick. Yeah fuck no asshole. Then he acts like if I don’t do shit he’ll find chick who would. Wow ok I don’t want to be with him but thought that seven fucking years of being together he had some kind of loyalty. I don’t know why I would think that he absolutely no respect for me. Every time I try to leave he makes shit ton of threats. He’s going to get my daughter taken away. Its hard to see a end in sight when every time I try to make an escape plans life fucks them up or him. Another to be continued

Proof

You know your with a dumbass when him finding a empty large gas station mountain dew is proof of you cheating. No dumbass it’s proof of my laziness. I loved mountain dew that shit is my life nectar. It probably been on my noght side table for two weeks. It’s like when you keep seeing something that you need to pick up but just keep ignoring it. Like a shirt that fell off a hanger. You didn’t pick it up so long it’s like it belongs there. You call it Micheal and continue not picking it up. Then when you finally do your like what’s different. So yeah this idiot thinks what someone came here and left pop can while he was gone. I don’t like talking to people let alone having someone over. Life with a dumbass just gets stupider everyday.

Arranged marriage

When I was younger I always thought an arranged marriage was crazy and some thing I would never do. Once my friend was talking to a really nice man. He was respectful and sweet and generous. Within a week she stopped talking to him and was talking to someone who was a total tool and asshole. Another time I was watching a TV show where a woman married an older man who was rich. He adorded her and treated her nice. Yet in the end she murdered him for his money. I don’t understand why they couldn’t just be with someone who treated them good and respected them. I might feel different because I’m with the biggest asshole there is but I would totally do an arranged marriage if they were nice and respectful. I really don’t care what someone looks like. I’ve meet many people who were seen as beautiful but to me they were the ugliest person. The way they acted and treated people was beyond cruel. I hate when people say we just fell in love. We didn’t plan it it happened what a load of shit. You know how you don’t fall in love or have an affair with someone you don’t talk to them. My sister has been with someone for eight years you know how many times I’ve talked to him alone probably less than ten. Even then I was watching there kids so was about them. I have never been alone with my assholes friends you know why cause he’s a creep and not my friend there is no need to ever be alone with them. It’s not hard to cheat people always act like I don’t know how it happened really I’m never accidentally fucking a stranger or anyone but my boyfriend. Like shit he doesn’t make me happy either but cheating isn’t going to help the situation. Why do people get with someone if there going to cheat. Like if you don’t want to do with your partner do it by yourself. Yep