Emotionally exhausted

Just wanted to chill and take it easy build up to doing stuff. But this asshole has to be in a mood. He’s watching a movie and I’m in my room watching videos. So basically the same shit but different rooms. But apparently that makes me a shitty Mom and lazy cause I’m not out. When he’s home it’s usually me doing stuff I need to do or me avoiding him. I don’t understand why he always wants to know everything I do. He does whatever I don’t ask and I shouldn’t have to explain every fucking thing I do. Then he acts like I’m the one controlling what he does. This asshole was supposed to take our daughter to store yesterday to buy toy he promised. Yet what does he do he gets his mom to do it and just let’s his mom watch her. Doesn’t even tell me she’s going to her grandma. Like what the fuck I didn’t even say goodbye. I say this shit and just says your fault you weren’t up. I was up I thought you were going to the store. Every fucking time I ask him to stop somewhere while he’s out acts like how dare I ask him to do shit for me. Yeah I’m the only one who is going to eat the food. I made dinner every day this week and yesterday I wasn’t feeling good and wanted food out I ask him to pick up Chipotle not pay for it just stop and get as he drives by. But no asking to much he’s not doing anything for me what have I done for him. I told him cook, clean, teach our daughter. He acts like it’s nothing he wants sexual shit. I have little to no interest in anything sexual with him. I don’t understand how he expects it and treats me the way he does. He calls me fatass and gross but I’m expected to suck his dick. Yeah fuck no asshole. Then he acts like if I don’t do shit he’ll find chick who would. Wow ok I don’t want to be with him but thought that seven fucking years of being together he had some kind of loyalty. I don’t know why I would think that he absolutely no respect for me. Every time I try to leave he makes shit ton of threats. He’s going to get my daughter taken away. Its hard to see a end in sight when every time I try to make an escape plans life fucks them up or him. Another to be continued

Ok just to clarify some shit I don’t spell check or pay attention to what I write. I think of shit and just write it down. I also don’t proofread anything which is probably bad but honestly if I did I would never blog anything. Unless I’m upset I don’t really have plan on what I’m going to say. Ok watching TV with my daughter and what the fuck is with kids tv these days really dumbing shit down. New show where kids friend is a garbage truck. Why the hell would they think a kid should play with a garbage truck. Also going to talk shit about curious George fuck I loathe to that fucking monkey. Every fucking time a grown ass adult is suprised a monkey does some stupid shit. It’s a monkey shouldn’t be a pet at all. Is it cause he’s a man he’s got to be so oblivious to dumb shit about to happen. Tired of all these dumbass kids shows showing kids getting into dumbass problems she don’t need anymore fucking ideas. Also must they glorify everything. Everyone has great jobs, live in nice houses in nice areas. Rarely ever see anyone in apartment like way to make me feel even worst about my life. Like fuck man I would love piglets house it’s adorable. Everyone usually has a animal. We had fish they died so tried bird was good until it also died way sadder when bird dies. I fucking cried felt bad about not getting it good last meal. It would of been watermelon he loved watermelon. She been asking for a dog I want a dog too it fucking sucks miss having a dog. I used to be in no dog building but know everyone saying they need emotional support animals every asshole has a dog. Huge fucking dogs that take huge shits everywhere and there owners ignore. My downstairs neighbor has a dog and has to have his patio door open so everyone can hear is fucking dog bark all day and night. Yeah asshole. Such a asshole he non-stop talks shit if he hears other people’s dogs like what. Your fucking dog is annoying. I really don’t understand how that makes sense in his brain. His do barks totally ok other dog barks how fucking dare they. What is the idea behind getting the biggest fucking dog you can get you live in small apartment and don’t walk it. I loved walking my dog. We used to go on like five walks a day. Watching shit about getting dog for Christmas. Already asked over twenty times. Fun times

Fucking shit

Ok let’s me bitch about home schooling. Nothing like going over shit for hole page and she does it correctly the entire time until she gets to the last question. I don’t know how many times she has completely forgotten everything we done. I swear sometimes she acts like she’s completely clueless unless im giving her all of my attention. It’s so aggravating dealing with her some times. Really didn’t help her father tell her she doesn’t have to listen to me. Who would of fucking thought telling a child to not to listen to her mother would fucking not help. Sweet baby fuck one of the stupidest shit he’s said to her. She used to do her school work everyday no problem. Now like fucking nightmare some days. And absolutely no surprise he doesn’t try to get her to do anything after saying such stupid shit. I have to say every fucking thing like seven times to get anyone to hear anything. They hear nothing unless I yell then bitch I yell. Fuck I got to say shit seven times and then yell. Listen the first time. Shit

Tired

I’m tired about to go to bed. Got shit ton to do tomorrow. Looking forward to it but at same time not I feel like something is going to come up and mess up my plans. Usually does which is why I don’t make plans. Which sucks I am a planner and a list maker. I usually have idea what I’m doing otherwise I just do nothing all day. My daughter is really into green eggs and ham tv show so we been reading alot of Dr suess lately. Ok I like the main shit but I also feel like there’s a lot of hype in his books. Like ok green eggs and ham is good but some of them are long and the fucky names of shit is annoying. I’m tired and not in mood or paying enough attention to want to read this dumb shit. Like I get the rhyming but can you at least make it shit I think my kid would be able to read. The more I read kids books the more I’m like what the fuck this is a horrible book. Green eggs and ham basically telling you to give in to peer pressure. Rainbow fish is telling you that you need to give people shit to be your friends. I reread it once then I was like never again this is bullshit. Bad enough tv shows showing her stupid shit. She keeps saying that she wants to stay home alone I ask her why she say kids on tv get to be home alone. Like damn you tv. Ok overly tired. Night