Ok I finally got some good fast food. I know basically a miracle. Not only did it look and taste amazing they accidentally gave us a large milkshake when we paid for snack size. So yeah that was pretty damn sweet.
Look at it in it’s Arby’s glory. It was so good.
Really upset lately. Really feel like my life has been on hold last couple of years. I’m not expecting to win the lottery but I just want a job that I don’t feel like is going to randomly shut down getting paid a reasonable amount of money. I hate interviews there always so rediculous. I keep getting the question why do you want to work here. Like fucking honestly what do they expect people to say. I need a job you need a position filled. They act like you should be so into there company. I only found out about your company when I see open position. Is it just me or these people a little fucking rediculous to act like I should be like I love your company and heard amazing things. One job I heard from many people that it was a horrible place to work for shit pay,shit work,and treat you like shit. I told a job recruiter that and she acted dumb founded I wouldn’t want to work there. Like are you fucking retarded like how are you suprised I wouldn’t want to work for shitty pay for shitty people. Honestly what a dumbass.
Year is almost over all I can think is fuck I’m still with this asshole. I don’t make new years resolutions but always in the back of my mind think not going to be with this asshole life suck much longer. And look about to go on seven fucking years. I never know how the fuck I lasted this long. Some days aren’t that bad other days are agonizingly horrible. I was so hopeful last year after I got my job I loved. I was dreaming about getting my own place and leaving. I would fantasize daily about everything I was going to do. I was going to work overtime or get second job on weekends so I could save up for a house. I was going to change my hair. Start dressing in dresses like I always wanted to. I still tried doing this but when someone calls you fat in pretty dress you really feel low again and don’t want to wear it anymore. I was thinking of getting a dog. I can’t have a cat my daughter is allergic. So was finally going to get us a dog she wants one so bag and so do I. But nothing happened this year is just the same as the last year. I’m lonely depressed and even more hopeless than before.
Ok just to clarify some shit I don’t spell check or pay attention to what I write. I think of shit and just write it down. I also don’t proofread anything which is probably bad but honestly if I did I would never blog anything. Unless I’m upset I don’t really have plan on what I’m going to say. Ok watching TV with my daughter and what the fuck is with kids tv these days really dumbing shit down. New show where kids friend is a garbage truck. Why the hell would they think a kid should play with a garbage truck. Also going to talk shit about curious George fuck I loathe to that fucking monkey. Every fucking time a grown ass adult is suprised a monkey does some stupid shit. It’s a monkey shouldn’t be a pet at all. Is it cause he’s a man he’s got to be so oblivious to dumb shit about to happen. Tired of all these dumbass kids shows showing kids getting into dumbass problems she don’t need anymore fucking ideas. Also must they glorify everything. Everyone has great jobs, live in nice houses in nice areas. Rarely ever see anyone in apartment like way to make me feel even worst about my life. Like fuck man I would love piglets house it’s adorable. Everyone usually has a animal. We had fish they died so tried bird was good until it also died way sadder when bird dies. I fucking cried felt bad about not getting it good last meal. It would of been watermelon he loved watermelon. She been asking for a dog I want a dog too it fucking sucks miss having a dog. I used to be in no dog building but know everyone saying they need emotional support animals every asshole has a dog. Huge fucking dogs that take huge shits everywhere and there owners ignore. My downstairs neighbor has a dog and has to have his patio door open so everyone can hear is fucking dog bark all day and night. Yeah asshole. Such a asshole he non-stop talks shit if he hears other people’s dogs like what. Your fucking dog is annoying. I really don’t understand how that makes sense in his brain. His do barks totally ok other dog barks how fucking dare they. What is the idea behind getting the biggest fucking dog you can get you live in small apartment and don’t walk it. I loved walking my dog. We used to go on like five walks a day. Watching shit about getting dog for Christmas. Already asked over twenty times. Fun times
Got woken up at one in the morning and already messed up my sleep. Hopefully will go back but I don’t have much hope of it. I worked nights for about four years I loved it not being a morning person. The entire time I worked first shift I hated it I couldn’t get enough sleep. The shitty thing is I always blame myself. I told my sister about it and anytime I tell anyone about anything it always gets messed up. Talked about how much I love my job bam get laid off. Talk about a promotion my supervisor wants to give me bam she quit and other person in charge is utterly oblivious to anything. I really don’t like talking about anything to people as soon as I do it’s like I just got to get shit on and put in my place. It could be the littlest stupidest shit but as soon as I mention it something happens and falls apart. Errrrrr the annoyance i just never get excited anymore even when I went on vacation I kept thinking something was going to ruin it.
shit life 