Let the whining beginning

It wouldn’t be life with an asshole if he didn’t constantly wake up with a bitchy aditude. First thing he wakes up flips out about some stupid shit I tried opossuming it didn’t work. Like always this asshole is relentless and willing to endlessly argue about the most mundane igsnificate thing. It’s never good to respond because he with twist anything you say and then harp on it for an hour. I tried different tactics I tried reasoning no didn’t work. I tried explaining no still didn’t work just harps on that bullshit. I tried ignoring no this bat shit crazy asshole with just argue with himself. Like he’s actually talking to me. He gets really into to it. Got to do his mocking voice and imitating me. Then he gets loud and then quite cause he’s not yelling. He also gets really close in you face you don’t even need to respond cause he’s just going to yell and basically spit on you. Yeah shake my head. Couple times I even agreed with whatever he was saying he just yelled as much. The effort he puts into having an argument is insane. Then when he’s done he acts like everything is fine. Like I don’t have fucking amnesia you asshole. I still don’t want to be by you. The only thing that’s gotten better is he use to bring up shit from years ago like I just fucking did it like really. Dealing with him makes me exhausted. Sometimes I just go to sleep because my dreams are better than my life. Real fucked up. Ok rant complete I made crepes.

Crepes or as my daughter calls them rolly things

Silver foxes

I was watching something with my daughter and it had a silver fox in it. The man was cute when he was younger but now he’s sexy as hell. As I get older and older the more I like silver foxes. Yeah men in there mid twenties are cute but I don’t really consider them sexy. I really don’t care about body as long as no beer belly. I love a silver fox. Even know there very hard to see in the wild. I can still hope. Here are some famous silver foxes.

Just so edible. Also look at that dude creeping in background

Another thing I’m liking is facial hair. In my twenties I was fuck no shave that shit you lumberjack. Now I’m like yeah sexy hairy beast. WARNING OVERLY TRUE STORY. Ok I was at my job and it was no shave November and this one guy walking around looking real good facial hair and weirdest shit popped into my mind. I thought about liking chili off his facial hair. Yes fucking chili like what the fuck. Like why chili it’s like the least sexy food. Fucking chili been years I’m still like why girl why.

This weird shit men are doing were there trying to look like lumberjack bikers is not hot look rediculous. Think it’s called lumbersexual. So stupid totally not my thing but you dudes do you. Also most o these men wear insanely tight pants and have a bit of a belly. I randomly see these in the wild and pants too tight no room for nothing. Like none. Must be tiny.

Feel like this shit is mark of a asshole

Plans

Fucking no point for me to make plans ever. I can ass my asshole if he planning on doing anything he just says no nothing at all. Ok I’m going to take bath, clean and sew. Yeah I’m weird I like getting clean to clean I don’t get it either but gets me in mood. I take bath then all the sudden he says lets go get food. Ok let’s go we go as getting food says I got to go get my check. Ok do that been an fucking hour. Now he wants to go pickup his jacket he left at friends. Ok fine we’ll do that since we’re fifteen minutes away. So we go he goes in he’s inside for over thirty minutes while I wait in the car. Just picking up a jacket. Then he cons me into going to his other friends house so he can check out his boat. His friends are shitty not surprising assholes travel in packs. Ok end up staying at his friends house where they completely ignore the fact they have two kids and it’s basically me only one around the kids. So about six hours later finally getting home. I don’t get to do what I planned on doing I basically just sat waiting for someone all day. This shit happens all the time. When I don’t want to go he’ll complain for legit fucking hours. If I still won’t go he’ll put off till I will go. The man acts like he can’t do shit unless I’m there. Its been years and still don’t get this shit. I usually rather do shit by myself. Fucking people end of rant

Mystery monolith

Ok ok I got to talk about this shit. Do I feel like it’s out of this world not really. Honestly I feel like it’s just some random shit someone did. Ok I like to keep to myself. I’m a huge introvert and most of my jobs I worked alone at monotonous jobs. But I was never board want to know why well first I’m always got some shit in my mind to think about or plan. Second I would do things that humored me. One being fucking with random people. Ok I worked in a factory and we pretty much had a constant rotation of new people coming in. In my area there was various machines and not many people knew much about them because if anything happened right away they would send brand new person to fix machine they never seen alone. So I made labels that matched the rest of the machine and took some knobs off a machine being dismantled and I glued the knobs on in random places on the machine and put lables that said shit like air pressure or electric current regulator. It was a machine that didn’t need air and I just made up the other shit. So anytime a new person came to fix it they would be trying to turn knob and trying to find in book. Yeah I’m a bitch but it was funny two new guys not willing to ask anyone about shit they didn’t know about so they just try turning a glued on knob. I didn’t do it to be mean or brag about cause honestly don’t care about others opinions but I thought that shit was fucking halarious. Another person I use to fuck with ok fucked with him cause he was a narcissist. He had a tool box he would leave unlocked every day I would mess with his drawers and rearrange everything. For like two months everyday he would get so pissed. Honestly was going to do only once but fuck his reaction was priceless I did it everyday. Fuck you nick. That shit was funny.

I updated my shit

Updated my shit looking pretty nice for someone who’s basically clueless about this kind of shit. I miss being able to go to the store at two in the morning when no one is there. Yes I know an American thing being able to go to store in middle of night. But I really don’t like people I want to take my time when I shop and not be bothered by people. It is basically the only reason I been shopping were I’ve been shopping because they are always empty. I went on busy day and like five people in the store. There more expensive and I don’t like the brands as much but I hate people more. Once I tried going to store I like better early in day and it was packed with people like wtf. Really need to go there again miss the food. Other place real limited. O o o I’m going to make list of good tv shows why cause I can and needs to be out there I guess. I don’t know I’m just doing random shit. I’m waiting for my eggs to cook.

Another depressing day

Another wonderful morning. Really hard to be sarcastic bitch when your crying. My asshole again was in a mood. Like a lot of times I pretended to be alseep so not have to deal with him. Clearly didn’t fucking work he spent what felt like hour breaking me down. What kind of woman am i. What kind of mom am I. What kind of girlfriend am i. The usual soul crushing demeaning talk. Couldn’t hold back my tears today. Hate it makes me feel like even more of a failure for crying in front of him. I felt my beyond alone helpless feeling I feel when he tears me down. Make me feel less than nothing. While I cried into my pillow as he torn me down I thought about giving away all my things selling the car I bought and only he drives for barely anything and leaving. But like always he loves to remind me I have no where to go. I tried my sister’s once fuck that sucked. Being told your a dumbass for staying with someone. Feeling like a failure because you couldn’t get your shitty relationship to work. Yeah I felt like failure. Then the asshole you tried to leave say just come back I’ll move out which of course he probably had no intention of doing. Then covid happen and you don’t have a job anymore. He was an asshole then but at least I had job I could go to everyday and just work. And I worked with no one so he finally couldn’t accuse me of cheating and withhold taking me to work. It was nice to get away from him. Its hard to want to do anything when he’s around always putting me down. I use to wonder how the fuck I got into such a shit relationship. I’ve always know it cause I was desperate never could admit it before but yeah. I just wanted someone that wanted me. 😭 I fucking hate emojis I never know wtf it is. But I guess that one cuts the seriousness of the shit going on.

Just got message he wants to know why we don’t ever do it anymore. Fucking wonder like seriously.

Talking shit about shitty shows

As everyone has more time to watch the bs that is television. There are many shows not worth watching. I hate getting interested in a show and watching episode after episode hoping everything ends well. But there are some shows that are a waste of time and leave you feeling like they seriously ending this shit like this. One is Nurse Jackie. Ok loved this show first couple seasons. She was a badass and didn’t take no shit. Yeah she had rough parts but seemed like was going to get through it. No no she didn’t they left it shitty and your just like are you fucking kidding me. Another is shameless like many people I liked it when it first started but honestly stopped watching. Like I’m fucking poor as shit but like damn don’t mean I’m the worst person. Like shit only portray poor people being trashy people who are shadey and backhanded. Dexter is another one like wtf with that ending. What shit. And for someone who was serial killer he told fucking everyone. Some shows just go on too long there completely different than when they started or just got way to rediculous. Gray’s anatomy like how many car crashes or hospital shootings are there. House kinda the same went on too long. I use to like Gilmore girls but also probably went on too long. I know everyone loves Gilmore girls but shit I tried rewatching it lately and omg there annoying. Like I’m dating an asshole am I surprised when he acts like one no cause he’s an asshole. Why the hell she always surprised when her rich snob family acts like rich snobs. Then there’s the fact like every other episode someone is either giving them money or trying to. Ok going to shit on Gilmore girls for a minute. They eat out every day like really. You didn’t think to ever try to learn to cook. Your 35 the fact you can’t cook makes you look like a child. Then she actually acts like a fucking child sometimes she just does stupid shit and I’m just like fucking grow up. I have to deal with my shitty in-law all the time you can’t not act like idiot for two hours once a week. Like fuck I’d do anything for my child. And I mean anything and I would just do I not complain like fucking child entire time. When the show first started they said she never really dated that’s really hard to believe cause she’s constantly going on dates with anyone. Let’s also talk about the fact she’s always choosing the wrong man then suprised when Rory has shit taste in men. One episode she dates man and lies that she loves to go fishing. OMG fucking stupid like shit how you expecting to have good honest relationship when you got to lie about something so stupid. Like you know your an adult right. You in your thirties run a business how do you always act like a child. Sookie started off normal then they made her fuck weird and not in a good way. Moving on Hemlock Grove first season was so good. Exciting and got sex in it then the second season and your just like is the same fucking show. Pushed myself to watch two other seasons they were shit and terrible. I mean like awkward quite sex terrible. You think and hope it’s almost over but nope fucking keeps going. Next supernatural like cool at first Sam and Dean are hot there dad is hot shit even Bobby is hot but fuck just kept going last I seen Bobby was killed and honestly only reason I was watching it and once you get rid of one of the man people I like I’m out. Which brings us our next semi shit show NCIS like started good got upset when they killed Kate but then really liked replacement. But now Abby is not going to be on it what I’m sorry but I’m out she held that shit. Next CSI it’s been on way too long I dipped out after grissim left he was older but damn he was cute. Desperate house wife’s also on way to long they skipped years wtf felt like they were running out of ideas it was cheaper than making new show which it basically was different fucking show after that. I am rambling on way longer than I thought I would. So ending it here. Whip whip wooo.

Generous?

Today after my asshole was his usual asshole self. He decided to get food but like always he doesn’t think to ask me what I would want he just decided for me. Of course I don’t want it I don’t like it. He always does this he never asks what I might actually want he just decides for me and every time I’m like who the fuck you get this for cause I don’t like this shit. I don’t like McDonald’s at all yet he always gets it like is he getting it to be asshole. He does this with everything. Jewelry is nice and all but not for me I don’t wear it or want it. But what does he get me a necklace this is after I told him don’t ever buy me jewelry. Every time he does it he always acts like I’m so generous. Yeah real generous giving someone something they don’t want or like.

Shit morning

Don’t you just hate waking up getting yelled at. No just me cause I’m the only one living with this much of an asshole. Woke up before him he seen me already awake and freak out what the fuck are you doing. I always want to be like I know you look at my internet history I look at craft bs, cooking, and mystery TV shows. The craziest I get on my phone is when I look up snl sketches. Here is a good one. https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=F7o4oMKbStE honestly if shit don’t work I won’t be surprised. Sorry bro . Anyways while this asshole was being his asshole self he decided he going to turn off the internet so I cant watch tv or use internet. I have shitty internet on phone. Yeah life sucks. Then he decided to leave with our kid who knows where to. So fun. I hope other people don’t have to deal with an asshole like mine but honestly sometimes it would feel nice to know I’m not only one dealing with such an asshole. You know see a sister/brother in arms. We can get threw this shit. Fuck fucky Fuck

Attempting to update my shit

Well I’m trying to update my shit. But phone being slow and battery low. Charger in other room so eventually shit will look better but honestly I’m pretty bad at this kind of shit and surprised got this far. Five percent not going to make it. Why…… Also real bad at spelling so yeah there’s that also. Sorry but then again don’t expect so much from strangers your always be disappointed.