Confused?

This jackass treats me like shit then is shocked I don’t want to spend time with him. Like how the fuck are you shocked. You stupid asshole are you this delusional that you think your being nice when you make me cry. Fuck you, you ass hat of a human being. Go suck a dirty dick you sack of garbage and die.

Let the whining beginning

It wouldn’t be life with an asshole if he didn’t constantly wake up with a bitchy aditude. First thing he wakes up flips out about some stupid shit I tried opossuming it didn’t work. Like always this asshole is relentless and willing to endlessly argue about the most mundane igsnificate thing. It’s never good to respond because he with twist anything you say and then harp on it for an hour. I tried different tactics I tried reasoning no didn’t work. I tried explaining no still didn’t work just harps on that bullshit. I tried ignoring no this bat shit crazy asshole with just argue with himself. Like he’s actually talking to me. He gets really into to it. Got to do his mocking voice and imitating me. Then he gets loud and then quite cause he’s not yelling. He also gets really close in you face you don’t even need to respond cause he’s just going to yell and basically spit on you. Yeah shake my head. Couple times I even agreed with whatever he was saying he just yelled as much. The effort he puts into having an argument is insane. Then when he’s done he acts like everything is fine. Like I don’t have fucking amnesia you asshole. I still don’t want to be by you. The only thing that’s gotten better is he use to bring up shit from years ago like I just fucking did it like really. Dealing with him makes me exhausted. Sometimes I just go to sleep because my dreams are better than my life. Real fucked up. Ok rant complete I made crepes.

Crepes or as my daughter calls them rolly things

Another shitty day

You ever just wake up and be so excited about the day. Excited to do things you been thinking of then your day gets shit on. Woke up excited about life planning my day to get screamed at about throwing away something on the ground by other trash. So far got screamed at that I’m stupid and worthless. That I’m gross and he doesn’t want me. I waited for him to leave before I cried. I don’t feel like doing anything. I love watching the tv show saving grace. Love that she’s so free. Free to act how she wants free to do what she wants. I miss that feeling of freedom. All I ever feel is trapped and alone. I randomly get ridiculously anxious and nervous and I just look up cars or motor homes and think about just taking off. Never coming back traveling like I always wanted to. As stupid as it sounds I always thought the wild thornberrys had it made traveling with your family to amazing places seeing amazing animals. I would do that in a heartbeat. I once found an adorable little house in the middle of nowhere it was adorable completely hidden in the woods so small. For months I dreamt of living there some reason with sheep and goats making goat cheese. Total isolated in the woods. I guess I just like something to dream about.