This jackass treats me like shit then is shocked I don’t want to spend time with him. Like how the fuck are you shocked. You stupid asshole are you this delusional that you think your being nice when you make me cry. Fuck you, you ass hat of a human being. Go suck a dirty dick you sack of garbage and die.
Tag: strange
Ok what the fuck I’m still fucking awake. Non-stop thinking about fucking everything and anything. So figured my family kinda selfish, asshole is a asshole and inconsiderate, the bs friends I had sucked always. Also fuck my family goes for shitty people. Like we pick shitty people they treat us shitty and we have disappointing life of shitty times. Fuck when I stay up late thinking this is what happens. I fucking over think everything and regret every decision I’ve ever made. I mean I already regret everything but usually I’m not thinking of other shit. Other day I reminded asshole how I don’t want to be with him. As soon I said it I regretted it. Why who fucking knows he treats me like shit and never considers me. Yet I felt bad I should of kept to myself I know I don’t want to be with him I don’t need to shove in his face. I fucking hate it I reget everything and way over think. My dad’s birthday other day and I knew and remembered and seen him but I can’t say happy birthday to him I don’t know it’s too personal and I’m weird about saying shit. If you had birthday when I knew you I remembered but just never said anything cause I didn’t think we were close enough to say shit. Yeah fucking weirdo I know. Was one guy I work with I knew his birthday was coming up was probably only person I ever said happy birthday to without someone else saying it first. I even hugged him and I’m not a hugger. I basically only hug my daughter and nieces and nephews. Miss that guy always talked to me like person. It was nice. I always feel like got shitty life because something I’ve done. To be continued……
Let the whining beginning
It wouldn’t be life with an asshole if he didn’t constantly wake up with a bitchy aditude. First thing he wakes up flips out about some stupid shit I tried opossuming it didn’t work. Like always this asshole is relentless and willing to endlessly argue about the most mundane igsnificate thing. It’s never good to respond because he with twist anything you say and then harp on it for an hour. I tried different tactics I tried reasoning no didn’t work. I tried explaining no still didn’t work just harps on that bullshit. I tried ignoring no this bat shit crazy asshole with just argue with himself. Like he’s actually talking to me. He gets really into to it. Got to do his mocking voice and imitating me. Then he gets loud and then quite cause he’s not yelling. He also gets really close in you face you don’t even need to respond cause he’s just going to yell and basically spit on you. Yeah shake my head. Couple times I even agreed with whatever he was saying he just yelled as much. The effort he puts into having an argument is insane. Then when he’s done he acts like everything is fine. Like I don’t have fucking amnesia you asshole. I still don’t want to be by you. The only thing that’s gotten better is he use to bring up shit from years ago like I just fucking did it like really. Dealing with him makes me exhausted. Sometimes I just go to sleep because my dreams are better than my life. Real fucked up. Ok rant complete I made crepes.
Silver foxes
I was watching something with my daughter and it had a silver fox in it. The man was cute when he was younger but now he’s sexy as hell. As I get older and older the more I like silver foxes. Yeah men in there mid twenties are cute but I don’t really consider them sexy. I really don’t care about body as long as no beer belly. I love a silver fox. Even know there very hard to see in the wild. I can still hope. Here are some famous silver foxes.
Another thing I’m liking is facial hair. In my twenties I was fuck no shave that shit you lumberjack. Now I’m like yeah sexy hairy beast. WARNING OVERLY TRUE STORY. Ok I was at my job and it was no shave November and this one guy walking around looking real good facial hair and weirdest shit popped into my mind. I thought about liking chili off his facial hair. Yes fucking chili like what the fuck. Like why chili it’s like the least sexy food. Fucking chili been years I’m still like why girl why.
This weird shit men are doing were there trying to look like lumberjack bikers is not hot look rediculous. Think it’s called lumbersexual. So stupid totally not my thing but you dudes do you. Also most o these men wear insanely tight pants and have a bit of a belly. I randomly see these in the wild and pants too tight no room for nothing. Like none. Must be tiny.
Feel like this shit is mark of a asshole
Plans
Fucking no point for me to make plans ever. I can ass my asshole if he planning on doing anything he just says no nothing at all. Ok I’m going to take bath, clean and sew. Yeah I’m weird I like getting clean to clean I don’t get it either but gets me in mood. I take bath then all the sudden he says lets go get food. Ok let’s go we go as getting food says I got to go get my check. Ok do that been an fucking hour. Now he wants to go pickup his jacket he left at friends. Ok fine we’ll do that since we’re fifteen minutes away. So we go he goes in he’s inside for over thirty minutes while I wait in the car. Just picking up a jacket. Then he cons me into going to his other friends house so he can check out his boat. His friends are shitty not surprising assholes travel in packs. Ok end up staying at his friends house where they completely ignore the fact they have two kids and it’s basically me only one around the kids. So about six hours later finally getting home. I don’t get to do what I planned on doing I basically just sat waiting for someone all day. This shit happens all the time. When I don’t want to go he’ll complain for legit fucking hours. If I still won’t go he’ll put off till I will go. The man acts like he can’t do shit unless I’m there. Its been years and still don’t get this shit. I usually rather do shit by myself. Fucking people end of rant
Talking shit about shitty shows
As everyone has more time to watch the bs that is television. There are many shows not worth watching. I hate getting interested in a show and watching episode after episode hoping everything ends well. But there are some shows that are a waste of time and leave you feeling like they seriously ending this shit like this. One is Nurse Jackie. Ok loved this show first couple seasons. She was a badass and didn’t take no shit. Yeah she had rough parts but seemed like was going to get through it. No no she didn’t they left it shitty and your just like are you fucking kidding me. Another is shameless like many people I liked it when it first started but honestly stopped watching. Like I’m fucking poor as shit but like damn don’t mean I’m the worst person. Like shit only portray poor people being trashy people who are shadey and backhanded. Dexter is another one like wtf with that ending. What shit. And for someone who was serial killer he told fucking everyone. Some shows just go on too long there completely different than when they started or just got way to rediculous. Gray’s anatomy like how many car crashes or hospital shootings are there. House kinda the same went on too long. I use to like Gilmore girls but also probably went on too long. I know everyone loves Gilmore girls but shit I tried rewatching it lately and omg there annoying. Like I’m dating an asshole am I surprised when he acts like one no cause he’s an asshole. Why the hell she always surprised when her rich snob family acts like rich snobs. Then there’s the fact like every other episode someone is either giving them money or trying to. Ok going to shit on Gilmore girls for a minute. They eat out every day like really. You didn’t think to ever try to learn to cook. Your 35 the fact you can’t cook makes you look like a child. Then she actually acts like a fucking child sometimes she just does stupid shit and I’m just like fucking grow up. I have to deal with my shitty in-law all the time you can’t not act like idiot for two hours once a week. Like fuck I’d do anything for my child. And I mean anything and I would just do I not complain like fucking child entire time. When the show first started they said she never really dated that’s really hard to believe cause she’s constantly going on dates with anyone. Let’s also talk about the fact she’s always choosing the wrong man then suprised when Rory has shit taste in men. One episode she dates man and lies that she loves to go fishing. OMG fucking stupid like shit how you expecting to have good honest relationship when you got to lie about something so stupid. Like you know your an adult right. You in your thirties run a business how do you always act like a child. Sookie started off normal then they made her fuck weird and not in a good way. Moving on Hemlock Grove first season was so good. Exciting and got sex in it then the second season and your just like is the same fucking show. Pushed myself to watch two other seasons they were shit and terrible. I mean like awkward quite sex terrible. You think and hope it’s almost over but nope fucking keeps going. Next supernatural like cool at first Sam and Dean are hot there dad is hot shit even Bobby is hot but fuck just kept going last I seen Bobby was killed and honestly only reason I was watching it and once you get rid of one of the man people I like I’m out. Which brings us our next semi shit show NCIS like started good got upset when they killed Kate but then really liked replacement. But now Abby is not going to be on it what I’m sorry but I’m out she held that shit. Next CSI it’s been on way too long I dipped out after grissim left he was older but damn he was cute. Desperate house wife’s also on way to long they skipped years wtf felt like they were running out of ideas it was cheaper than making new show which it basically was different fucking show after that. I am rambling on way longer than I thought I would. So ending it here. Whip whip wooo.
Shit morning
Don’t you just hate waking up getting yelled at. No just me cause I’m the only one living with this much of an asshole. Woke up before him he seen me already awake and freak out what the fuck are you doing. I always want to be like I know you look at my internet history I look at craft bs, cooking, and mystery TV shows. The craziest I get on my phone is when I look up snl sketches. Here is a good one. https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=F7o4oMKbStE honestly if shit don’t work I won’t be surprised. Sorry bro . Anyways while this asshole was being his asshole self he decided he going to turn off the internet so I cant watch tv or use internet. I have shitty internet on phone. Yeah life sucks. Then he decided to leave with our kid who knows where to. So fun. I hope other people don’t have to deal with an asshole like mine but honestly sometimes it would feel nice to know I’m not only one dealing with such an asshole. You know see a sister/brother in arms. We can get threw this shit. Fuck fucky Fuck
Arranged marriage
When I was younger I always thought an arranged marriage was crazy and some thing I would never do. Once my friend was talking to a really nice man. He was respectful and sweet and generous. Within a week she stopped talking to him and was talking to someone who was a total tool and asshole. Another time I was watching a TV show where a woman married an older man who was rich. He adorded her and treated her nice. Yet in the end she murdered him for his money. I don’t understand why they couldn’t just be with someone who treated them good and respected them. I might feel different because I’m with the biggest asshole there is but I would totally do an arranged marriage if they were nice and respectful. I really don’t care what someone looks like. I’ve meet many people who were seen as beautiful but to me they were the ugliest person. The way they acted and treated people was beyond cruel. I hate when people say we just fell in love. We didn’t plan it it happened what a load of shit. You know how you don’t fall in love or have an affair with someone you don’t talk to them. My sister has been with someone for eight years you know how many times I’ve talked to him alone probably less than ten. Even then I was watching there kids so was about them. I have never been alone with my assholes friends you know why cause he’s a creep and not my friend there is no need to ever be alone with them. It’s not hard to cheat people always act like I don’t know how it happened really I’m never accidentally fucking a stranger or anyone but my boyfriend. Like shit he doesn’t make me happy either but cheating isn’t going to help the situation. Why do people get with someone if there going to cheat. Like if you don’t want to do with your partner do it by yourself. Yep
Thanksgiving
Ok covid fucked everyone’s year. But I’m so glad I don’t have to do rediculous Thanksgiving and Christmas. Who likes going to in-laws house with shit ton of kids and eating food you don’t really like. My family makes a turkey, dinner mashed potatoes, stuffing, sweet potatoes, gravy, and yes cheese sauce. I put cheese sauce my turkey, mashed potatoes and broccoli. I really don’t like gravy on everything cheese sauce is the way to go. The first time I went to my in-laws I took cheese sauce. These people had to talk about this shit the entire time. These are the same people who overcook most things and some reason have tater tots at every family gathering. This year it’s different I only have to deal with my mother in law. Yes she over cooks everything also but I can deal. She always makes us take half the leftovers which yeah I definitely don’t want but it’s fine it’s one person I can deal with it.
I am most likely not going to make anything. Maybe cheese sauce. But I’m not sure if I want to deal with the bitchy comments. You think after almost seven years hearing the non-stop bitchy comments I would be ok with them but no. Still annoying and still completely unnecessary. Boy are they unnecessary.
Strange
When your strange no one remembers your name. This is the most bs song lyric. Growning up as a loner/introvert I hated that lyric. I had the opposite reaction ever Tom dick and Harry knew my name for some fucking reason. Why is it people have a fascination with obsessing over people or things that are different. Then harrasing and judging them. Growing up it seemed everything I did was a strange and foreign thing to be mocked in hushed tones. there was one time I dyed my hair different colors I loved it it was brown and blackish blue. I loved that it was different and unique. But like most days as soon as I got to school they had to crush my spirit but putting me on spot and making huge deal. Asking me rediculous questions about being in a gang. Which is even more rediculous when you know I was in the third fucking grade in the suburbs. They asked me when would it wash out I grew up poor didn’t know about temporary hair dye. I even asked what’s the big deal it’s hair. Even to this day I’m like what is wrong with people. If I seen people with different ways I would be that’s different but honestly don’t care. This shit and stupid shit like it is part of life I guess we’ll it is for me. Sometimes and by sometimes I mean most of the time I don’t understand people. I worked at a job for about three years the people I talked to I talked to alot. But if I don’t know you I really have no interest in talking to you unless I have to. I had to talk to my HR manager about something and she attempted to describe me and I laughed she described me as shy. I told her I don’t talk to her cause I don’t need to or want to. Most people say I never stop. It always seems people are horrible judges of character. I feel like I’m pretty good except for men I’m interested in I’m horrible. But being a good judge of character doesn’t help me understand people. I don’t understand when people play games in relationships. My asshole always thinks I’m playing games he acts like I tell him I want to break up is a game. Do people do this I don’t understand. I pretty much just say what I mean I say I hate you cause I do. I say I’m making you cake cause I felt like it not because I expect anything. I don’t understand why people only do something to get something. I do shit because I like to. Honestly just showing I care. Rambling on like I do. So just end it I am shit at spelling and am all over the place. But it is what it is. Wicka picka boo
shit life 