Tired so tired

I’m at work and fuck I’m tired. I’m also really wanting a sandwich with turkey, cheese and honey mustard. Sounds so good don’t it. I tried eating a pop tart but my God the crumbs. I’ve had them in my bag for two weeks and kinda smashed. Even if I try to eat it carefully crumbs every where. Infomercial on and fuck it’s hard not to be a sarcastic bitch when your tire. No Debra you don’t know ignorant bitch. They list these people like there a celebrity I’ve never heard of Debra I don’t care if the bitch put out a book people read. A lot of dumbass people put out stupid books. It’s fucking torture to sit on a couch when your tired unable to lay the fuck down. When I’m tired I always want to cuddle. I’m real fucking tired and want to cuddle up and take nap. I’m back to talking shit about a show. Air purifier and dude has fifty dogs idc how well it works that is gross. Can’t tell me his house isn’t covered in dog hair.

Getting things started

Why is it getting started so annoying long. What happened to the times where you wanted to do something like go to school or get job you basically just had to walk in the door. Getting a job is making a resume no one’s going to look at. Applying to a hundred places and maybe get three call backs. Where they ask you about your resume they clearly didn’t read. Then put down all of your experience and act like your a horrible person for leaving a shit job. Or good forbid you leave without giving notice. That’s bullshit I was getting harassed and told management and they acted like I was being dramatic so I quit that. or another job just telling me I’m going to get a promotion and dick me around for months then randomly give it to someone else after I was basically doing the job. They don’t deserve notice. Another thing is so many places act like we should be insanely loyal to some shit place constantly screwing there employees. Fuck you think I have to be loyal to do my job properly. Get the fuck out of here.

Confused?

This jackass treats me like shit then is shocked I don’t want to spend time with him. Like how the fuck are you shocked. You stupid asshole are you this delusional that you think your being nice when you make me cry. Fuck you, you ass hat of a human being. Go suck a dirty dick you sack of garbage and die.

Crushed

I had some hope about changing my life but my jackass reminded me he not going to let it happen easily. Already told me not taking me to work. I told him yeah eventually I’m going to move out because I don’t like to feel like I’m hiding shit. I especially don’t like to be accused of it. He’s in other room laughing at funny videos. I just want out of this shit. I fucking hate this. Already exhausted and just want to sleep. So shitty I new he would do this anything he had to stop me from getting away. He’s not working and I’m not working but he doesn’t care he says I should get job working at store I like. I told him I wouldn’t make enough. Just another way of keeping me put. Working a job that would just barely pay my bills. Yeah that’s what I want to do.

Wtf people

ter·ror·ist

a person who uses unlawful violence and intimidation, especially against civilians, in the pursuit of political aims.

Yesterday was a sad day not only for American’s but for all people. Terrorist who attacked the capitol building apparently with the hope to show the election wasn’t stolen. Ok so to prove something were going to completely ignore all the evidence and destroy government property. Inflicting fear into people just doing there jobs. Then act like bunch of jackass’s going through people’s offices and taking pictures of yourself. This was not a protest. This was terrorist trying to get there way. You know what a protest is when they had sit ins and sat at white chairs and got attacked and didn’t move. Attending an all white school as a black child so others can. Destruction is not a act of protest. It is an act of terrorism. Every thing has gone over again and again nothing was stolen. You destroying something to somehow show it was stolen is the most rediculous immature thing to do. I have an insane about of shit in my life that is sucks I’m not going to cry and whine about it and destroy things. Suck it up and deal with it. Shame on those people for doing that.

pro·test·er

a person who publicly demonstrates strong objection to something; a demonstrator

I really would like to know there thought process. We’re going to destroy shit and tell them it’s stolen. There going to be your right where ignoring the votes completely and he can continue his bullshit. Did they think people would be proud of them. Or that people would praise there heroic efforts. Sorry but you didn’t do anything good. You put lives in danger because you didn’t agree with something. In the words of Saturday night live when you watch Titanic you think your rose but you Billy Zane.

Ok what the fuck I’m still fucking awake. Non-stop thinking about fucking everything and anything. So figured my family kinda selfish, asshole is a asshole and inconsiderate, the bs friends I had sucked always. Also fuck my family goes for shitty people. Like we pick shitty people they treat us shitty and we have disappointing life of shitty times. Fuck when I stay up late thinking this is what happens. I fucking over think everything and regret every decision I’ve ever made. I mean I already regret everything but usually I’m not thinking of other shit. Other day I reminded asshole how I don’t want to be with him. As soon I said it I regretted it. Why who fucking knows he treats me like shit and never considers me. Yet I felt bad I should of kept to myself I know I don’t want to be with him I don’t need to shove in his face. I fucking hate it I reget everything and way over think. My dad’s birthday other day and I knew and remembered and seen him but I can’t say happy birthday to him I don’t know it’s too personal and I’m weird about saying shit. If you had birthday when I knew you I remembered but just never said anything cause I didn’t think we were close enough to say shit. Yeah fucking weirdo I know. Was one guy I work with I knew his birthday was coming up was probably only person I ever said happy birthday to without someone else saying it first. I even hugged him and I’m not a hugger. I basically only hug my daughter and nieces and nephews. Miss that guy always talked to me like person. It was nice. I always feel like got shitty life because something I’ve done. To be continued……

Proof

You know your with a dumbass when him finding a empty large gas station mountain dew is proof of you cheating. No dumbass it’s proof of my laziness. I loved mountain dew that shit is my life nectar. It probably been on my noght side table for two weeks. It’s like when you keep seeing something that you need to pick up but just keep ignoring it. Like a shirt that fell off a hanger. You didn’t pick it up so long it’s like it belongs there. You call it Micheal and continue not picking it up. Then when you finally do your like what’s different. So yeah this idiot thinks what someone came here and left pop can while he was gone. I don’t like talking to people let alone having someone over. Life with a dumbass just gets stupider everyday.